A blog titled happiness raises quite an eyebrow...I mean to say what the heck is new in this one that one has to write so much in his blog?? And in fact as I am, as my readers and my close people know, am not so much of an intellectual guy to write on a heavy duty thinking topic such as this one...In fact I am writing this blog when the water of Ganges are murkier by two months...
Before you assume anything,let me make my self clear first.I just cant say that I didn't had time or a topic to post about in this two months...rather a lot of good,overwhelming and as well as a heartbreaking news had made my world turn upside down in these two months...No no..I am not giving or passing excuses...but really it did happened...Ok,ok. Let me gain myself and tell you the things that happened in this quite inconsequential two months time.
Firstly, following up on my blog of "anticipation of the joining letter", I finally did get my joining letter on the first week of February. I just cant explain the ecstacy that I felt ( I wasn't drugged) as I was thinking of joining as the only ultimate goal in my life.
Secondly,I literally did "grew up" to an extent by not allowing my dad to accompany me to Delhi.He was hard pressing, but I did resist him from coming with me. Though I myself wasn't that much confident travelling alone, but I had high hopes for my friends (Atul & Om, who were there that time) to come and receive me. After all I was, may be still now a "kid" who just cant live without "papa's hand" or rather maybe I have a habit for asking a "helping hand" at each and every point of my life.
Thirdly, the opening to my new company was not so very nice experience when during the induction(2nd day itself) the presenter (on health and safety basics) showed us some "unhealthy" (read:- in bad taste) images that made me wonder, am I really suitable for this job..I was constantly thinking of returning back to Kolkata and wait for my other company's joining when I found GOD telling me.."If the rest 139 candidates (colleagues) can stay and overcome the fear or the risk of the job then why cant I???"
For the fourth point I have a confusion between two events. My trip to Agra where I terribly (read:- greatly,exceedingly,awfully,badly and whatever you can add similar to the other terms mentioned here) missed all my loved ones, or the sad demise of one of my very close friend... I better not talk about either topic as I don't want to remember two events to have ever occurred in my life.
Fifth, the salary credited to our account was beyond our expectations. Never mind that it included the salary of last eight days of February. Afterall first Official salary is something that was new to most of us (few had been working previously,hence they didn't feel anything new).
Sixth and the final of all, My posting in Kolkata. All out of the blue the news did came that me along with four of my colleagues have got their respective posting in kolkata itself where we are to join just after finishing our training in delhi on the contrary where many people have been literally thrown to different parts of the country ignoring their preference of joining.
Now can anyone tell me what should or rather how should I describe my present situation? What I mean to say is that I am and I will be rather confused if someone asks me if I am happy or not? .....Seriously...I my self dont know how to react to all these emotional changes around me...Help!!! Anyone...
To assist you in answering here is a small tip that I want to share from my side. "After the days end I am the one lucky enough to get all my things answered in the best possible way,both financially as well as physically ,hence I should be happy"-does it goes like this?
Also what I dont understand is that does really a persons happiness is denoted by his present situation?? And is it only sensed in monetary terms or is there anything that is termed as "real happiness". In my school days I remember a saying( I don't remember whose it was or how accurate I am writing here) "Happiness are occasional events in a Journey of sorrow"(Or something like that. I don't remember properly.)
To add a better conclusion to this topic I want to add this a line of mine...though it is not an actual definition that I have Googled but is rather a "framed" one. Maybe it can be stated as following, maybe that's the best I can say:-
"Happiness is an assumption of the mind, when the individual is in a preferable situation with respect to his peers,for which he is not responsible(situation)".
